Wow, today may be a two post day. For some reason I just have a lot floating around in my mind.
For the last two weeks I’ve been restless. Since this happened recently, I figured that meant something was going to be happening, so I should just spend my time waiting. Well, unlike other times I kind of felt that this was a little more directed (which has happened before) so I figured I would just roll with it. One of the things I started to realize was how badly I wanted to try and make a script I have into a film. I figured if there was any time to take a gamble it was after graduating. As the days continued my restlessness waxed and waned as I began preparing for another semester of school (which I start tomorrow).
My initial thoughts about working on an Independent film were:
- It would look good for my portfolio.
- I really loved my story and believed in it.
Today as I was standing on a ladder painting the garage a scene flashed through my mind, it was a scene that I have yet to add into my script. My characters were clear and the conflict even clearer. I don’t know if anyone can relate but often times I don’t feel like the author of my work. Instead, I feel like I am just a special spectator who is allowed to see a scene before others and it is my job to write it down. After the scene stopped and I put a mental note down that I needed to add that to my script, I felt God telling me that this is what I was supposed to do create this film. The doubts I had about all the work or financing I may need to find just kind of slipped away. What was important was the story and telling it. It is hard to explain, it is as if a weight was put on me…but one that didn’t bog me down. I knew there is no turning back now.
I am not exactly sure how this is going to come together or how I will get what I need, but that at this point seems moot. If this is what I am supposed to be doing it will happen.
For some this might sound absolutely crazy…I can totally understand. I wish it was something I could explain better. I honestly believe that there are some people in life that were created with one purpose to fulfill and I think I am one of them. Its like being a puzzle piece. You don’t just fit anywhere in the puzzle, there is a specific slot allocated just for you and when you are where you need to be you just know.
